Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Melancholia

I’m one of those chicks who pride themselves in the inability to feel such fickle human emotions as loneliness. I’m starting to rethink my stand on that though; I guess the powers that be are at work, doing their best to reassure me that I am in fact quite human contrary to common belief.
I was in an all girls’ school for the whole of my high school (you can stop gasping already, I’m perfectly normal). Regardless of that fact, I find it rather difficult to make girlfriends. Don’t get me wrong, girls are great and all but given the callousness and insensitivity of my temperament or personality or whatever, I’d much rather stick with the thicker skinned sex. There are some chicks on the other hand that perhaps are on heaven’s mission to redeem me from the hell that is I or maybe decide to disregard the Cruela attitude that I have so completely adopted……… I don’t know. Anyway, they are my friends
There’s this whole craze with studying abroad that I don’t completely click yet (don’t kill me P) but against my advice and better judgment, they have all been swept up in this tide. Every. One. Of. Them. It wasn’t so bad until Sunday night after I said goodbye to the last lot of them at the airport and comforted their miserable mothers- I have a knack for that by the way- I got home and it hadn’t hit me yet……. At least not completely that I no longer had anyone to wallow in self pity with or to share the latest juicy gossip with for the moment.
Anyhow, on Sunday night there was this major crisis at home that almost resulted in my death and I just needed to hala at some one who I didn’t have to start explaining everything to from scratch. You can imagine my horror when I realized there was none of my girls I could call, at least not for the next two days. As if that was not enough, all the guys had their phones off because it was Sunday night and they wanted an uninterrupted night before the new week. What the fuck?!
Worry not, I’m coping. I vent by breaking little birdies’ necks. Not

P.S: I’m trying to stop swearing, it’s not working very well though, any pointers? Not from you Antipop though

P.P.S: There is a new boy in my great life, more about it later……. Or not

19 comments:

Mudamuli Ntikita Ntikita said...

I thought I was the only one with this problem of finding it easier to make friends with guys than girls and having only 2 girlfriends left as the rest are married. Now one of the 2 is also getting married in December. I don't know what I will do then.

Princess said...

oH, darn!!! I'm late! It's like 7 pm over there!
I'm worried!
Hit me up in my inbox, when you eventually see this.

Josh said...

I think I kinda know what that feels like.The loneliness I mean..:D

((((DD)))

Mr. B2B said...

"... but given the callousness and insensitivity of my temperament or personality or whatever..."

Well Well DareDee...

not a bad way of saying you need company huh! just chill and just be
find some "you" time, then gimme a shout and we laugh at all your homegirls....

[there is a new boy in my great life, more about it later]

wait... what happened to the other story...

you/ your boss/ alone/ drama???

The dare-devil said...

@ Mudamuli: It's not like they'll be truly gone or anything, they'll just have new kind of stories, the kind that are placed under too much info...
@ P: u can relax, I'm good now!
@ Josh: ((((Josh))))
@ B2B: I don't need company in the sense that I'm surrounded by a whole bunch of loving folks, I just want those ones back. Anyhow, it's a girl thing, don't expect you to understand.... oh, when are you free so we can commence with the laughter? The other story? On the way, on the way

Robyn said...

you are a writer,,good stuff here.Its okay with the swearing it might wear off with age or not.

B2B said...

i think i can try and understand you coz i have seen it happen to a whole lotta my homegirls...

and also, how about sometime next week... a ka mini-BHH of sorts?

wait, BHH is next week right?

Princess said...

I has beef!
1.I'm missing the BHH. [expletives follow] Oh, damn!I'm turning into DeTambs now. :D
2.For some inexplicable reason, I feel my hackles rise every time Josh hugs a girl or is hugged by a girl.
Josh, you hear?!!!

The dare-devil said...

@ Robyn: Thank you and welcome
@ B2B: I think we can do the mini-BHH, BHH is like in a fortnight or so, I think......
@ P: Don't have beef,
1. I shall give you a detailed description of BHH, it will be as if you were there
2. I can assure you there is nothing to the hug save the much needed comfort

Princess said...

LOL, I know there's nowt to the hug. I'm just being an irrational idiot! :-)

Josh said...

@Princess:Yes,your highness. :P :D

@DD:Really? :D Lol

antipop said...

you're a chap?
you're a chap?
all this time i been thinking you are a gal! dammit. dammit!

antipop said...

i think we should just start a ka club or something. i have been tryna stop swearing for about 4 months now. i am taking some good strides. but with you in my group, we could all turn out great. what do you say?

The dare-devil said...

Eh antipop, thot you were dead... Chap=inside joke (Don't ask). Definately in for the group swearing thing....... 14 months?! Baby, I haven't even been 3 weeks and I can bet you I swear less than you!

Spartakuss said...

ok you can imagine my shock upon discovering that dareD is a chap!? i was following the whole thought pattern then it threw me off with the thing about all my girlfriends are gone? was that it?

and am thinking princess just left town this dude must be a chic!!
so in fairness to you, pray do tell me what sex you are
and even if you dont i will still read your work, pretty good stuff!

i have found that loneliness can be remedied by a the discovery of a new hobby, or doing something freshly exciting and cheap! look up josh's list on and you'll be amazed at what you shd do to infuse some new energy into your life...

The dare-devil said...

Ok, edited the post, yes, I'm a girl as I said the reference to myself as a chap is an inside joke. We clear?

Anonymous said...

mmmmm............swearing!! am just speechless!!

Sleek said...

i speak for many when i say get on with part two of that story, u know which one...and there's this software u can use that'll replace the swear words in your posts, worked 4 me:www.swearsoftwareug.com....lemme know how that goes

~ScotchBiscuits~ said...

I am sure 'your girls' are all warm and fuzzy knowing how your cold callous unemotional self actually misses them; even though you haven't exactly spelled that out,
that has to mean tonnes coming from you:)